June

It's June 5th and life seems so different than it did just a few weeks ago. I actually do feel a lot more grown up than I did before graduation, or even the day of graduation, or even the day after graduation.
You get my point though. I do a lot by myself and on my own terms now. I come home when I want for the most part, though I do respect Catherine and come home not too late some nights.

I have some new friends getting me through life right now, they're awesome. And reconnecting with old friends. I just never feel good enough. I always get put on the back burner. I can introduce friends, bring friends together, and still I'm the one that gets left out. I hate it. That's why I don't like getting all my friends together. Sounds weird and ridiculous right? But when you go from being someones BEST FRIEND then to the friend you leave out, it really sucks. So for now, you want to talk? Text me, call me, beep me. You want to hangout? Make an effort. In any friendship you both have to try and care. And I'm done making all the effort. I don't make all the effort in a relationship, and I don't do everything at work, so I wont for a friendship.