I'm actually starting to like you. It's nice. I love spending time with you but my head is soooo full with doubts. And I'm extremely insecure.
I like your smile, dimples, laugh, hair, and eyes.
I love how you are funny, quiet sometimes, extremely outgoing, and honest.
But the other day when I heard you talking about her because you didn't notice I was around I felt like dying. I don't like that fact that you are still doing "stuff" with her.
It's funny how I always like guys that are so hard to get. But in a way I got you I guess.. But not in the way I want or need..
I dont want to be friends with benefits. I don't want to be like that with you, and thats how it seems right now.
I know I'm not nearly as pretty or skinny as her..
But you guys broke up for a reason, right?
You aren't just using me, are you?
You actually have some sort of feelings for me, right?
I have so many questions for you. I just want you to be honest. But I don't even have enough courage to ask you any of them.. I just want you to read my mind a reassure me that we have something, at the absolute least.
I mean every time I get a message from you I get this huge goofy grin on my face....
Of course they don't come as often as I would like. There is days when we don't talk at all. But you always message me first... So thats good...Right?
I wish I had someone to talk to about this whole situation but I can't..
I'm not close with many people.
I don't want like anyone knowing about him. Or who he is. I'm not ashamed, so don't get that idea.
But the situation is a sticky one.
It could ruin some friendships I think...
It could make other friendships awkward..
Plus, I just really dont want to hear I deserve better. I already heard that from someone and it pissed me off.
I don't need looking after from friends.
I don't care if he doesn't meet your standards.
He meets mine and I could see myself really liking him. Thats all that matters.]
Ugh.
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I don't even know what to think of this situation.
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